It's no secret - I would make an excellent stay at home wife. I tried for years to make it work out for me. I always offered to stay home and take care of the house, but it never quite worked out. The chances of me finding work as a stay at home wife in these parts is highly unlikely. The one time I thought it might finally work out for me, I was offered my current job the next day and it really wasn't something I could refuse.
Joshua and I have always talked about me being at stay at home mom, and I've always been super in to it. This may be the first time you're hearing of it. I don't often share this because as a whole, my family is fairly disapproving of this career choice. I do have a bachelors degree, and someday Isaiah will know as much about history as I do. I would love to be at home raising our children, teaching them things, going places with them, enjoying my days with them. That is the bright rosy part of it that is so appealing.
What I didn't get until recently, is that it isn't all butterflies and daisies.
I have a great job, but it's just that - a job. I wouldn't miss the work, but I would greatly miss the people. I have been getting regular updates on how boring the office is without me. The one I got today from my boss told me that one coworker picked his nose and almost bled out, another thinks they have a brain tumor, someone else has a lot of gas, nothing funny happens without me there, and everyone talks to him and he just wants them to shut up. I actually miss that and I honestly didn't expect to.
One of our good friends was in town the other day. We don't see him often, and when we do, he and Josh spend basically the whole time together. There is nothing wrong with that, but it gave me my first dose of stay at home motherhood.
I'm not sure how you all do it. I had gotten so used to the help I was getting from Josh that the instant he was away and I wasn't able to ask for his help, the difference was extremely apparent. And it was hard. And it made me wonder if I was really cut out to be a SAHM. (By the way, my SAHM status is still pending. We're not 100% sure it will happen). I mean, it's an unending job. The only thing I keep reminding myself is that I have been able to succeed at everything else I've put my mind to (except for being a cashier. I wasn't so great at that). So maybe if I decide it's going to work, it will.
Did anyone else question their decision to be a SAHM?