And now I am.
I truly have everything I've ever wanted, and it is just as wonderful as I always imagined it being (I'm only a few weeks in, so give me some time).
But as I've said before, I haven't forgotten about infertility.
In the short time since Isaiah has been born, infertility has been on my mind more than ever it seems. I feel infinitely more sensitive to other infertile women, because now, I have the appearance of a fertile woman. I look like someone who won.
And to be honest, I did win. It's a mixed emotional feeling I've been having. I will never be anything but happy about Isaiah, but I don't want infertile women to look at me and feel the way I did looking at other women with children. While I want to be sensitive to that, I will not shout from rooftops that Isaiah is adopted. I talk about it here, but in public I don't. Isaiah isn't my adopted son, he is my son.
Josh asked me a few days ago if I had ever considered doing anything with our experiences. I have lots of ideas in my head of what I might do down the road, but Josh got me thinking about what I can do now. Most infertility support comes from the internet, and it isn't always positive. I'm tossing around the idea of a peer-led support group. I've tried to find one in the Fort Wayne area and can't come up with anything.
So I'm asking you for ideas. What can you come up with as a way for me to reach out to other women facing infertility, in a positive and encouraging way?
Also, if you're interested (or know someone who is) and you're not in the Fort Wayne area, we can use Google Hangouts to video meet (we use it in the book club that I'm loosely a member of these days).
I want to thank you in advance for anything you offer, and thank you all so much for being so supportive to me and my small family. We appreciate all of it.